Jayden沒有立刻回答，他的眼神變得很空洞，直直地盯着沙發的扶手。終于，像是做了很大的決心似的，他才開了口：“Depression. She eh... she hung herself.（抑郁症。她... 她上吊自殺了。）” 話音剛落，Jayden之前還能自持住的鎮定便全面崩潰了，他的眼淚一瞬間迸發出來。東方餘悠趕緊拿起面前桌子上的紙巾，重新坐回了Jayden身旁。Jayden接過紙巾，把眼睛埋進紙裡，他早已泣聲不止以至于無法擡頭。
東方餘悠真想扇自己一巴掌，想想她做過的、說過的一切，她簡直無法原諒自己。
Jayden又繼續說了下去，但仍沒有擡頭：“She's not blood, but she's more than that... She was such a sweet person...（她不是血親但是勝似血親... 她是一個那麼美好的人...）” 東方餘悠用手輕拍着他的後背。“ She was an orphan, but for some reason she just had so much love to give to the world... and to me, especially to me..（她是一個孤兒，但是不知道為什麼她有那麼多的愛去給這個世界... 去給我，尤其是我...）.”
東方餘悠：“I'm sorry...（我很抱歉...）” 她不明白自己在為什麼道歉，或許她隻是在表示惋惜。她唯一知道的是，Jayden現在的樣子令她心痛不已，卻又有些許慶幸他終于說了出來。
Jayden：“She was only two years older than me, but she was much wiser and much... talented in everything. I started playing tennis because she was playing, and she was so good at it. I still remember the good old time when we played tennis at our backyard. She was such a fierce and competitive player, she would've been a top pro if it wasn't for depression.（她隻比我大兩歲，但是她比我更睿智、更...有天賦，在各個方面。我會打網球也是因為她打網球，她打得特别好。我還記得我們在後院一起打網球的美好時光。她是那麼鋒利那麼有鬥志的球員，如果不是因為抑郁症的話，她應該會是一個頂尖職業球員。）”
東方餘悠：“Depression huh...（抑郁嗎...）” 她現在終于懂得了Jayden對她的關心和擔憂，那單純得沒有一絲情愛的恐懼，害怕再次失去。
Jayden：“It hit her so suddenly, we couldn't even figure out the trigger of it. It was just like out of nowhere, she wasn't like herself anymore. She was emptied, and I think toward the end, she was just...gone, before she was actually gone... You know what I mean?（它來得那麼突然，我們都想不明白為什麼。也不知道是從何而來，她變得不像她自己了。她就像被掏空了，而且我覺得到最後，她好像已經... 走了，在她真正離開之前就已經走了... 你知道那種感覺嗎？）” Jayden擡起頭看向東方餘悠，眼神迫切。
東方餘悠看着他的眼睛點了點頭：“Yeah.（我明白）” 雖然她并不能明白，但她覺得Jayden需要一個肯定的回答。
Jayden：“She was completely incapacitated. She couldn't do anything. She quitted school, she quitted tennis, she cut ties with all her friends... And I noticed it, but I just chose to believe that she was just going through a phase...（她完全失去了做任何事的能力。她什麼也幹不了。她沒辦法去上學，她不再打網球，她和所有朋友斷了聯系... 我注意到了，但是我隻選擇了相信她隻是正在經曆某個階段）” Jayden又再次泣不成聲。
東方餘悠把手放在他的肩膀上，輕輕地捏了幾下，她不知道此刻她能說些什麼讓他少一些痛苦。
Jayden突然擡高音量，甚至有些歇斯底裡起來：“I didn't know how to handle that, she was not the Bella I used to know, I did't know how to deal with it, I didn't know what to say to her or how I can be of any help, I didn't know...!（我不知道怎麼應對，她已經不是我知道的那個Bella了，我不知道怎麼做，我不知道該對她說些什麼或者我能怎麼幫到她，我不知道！）”
東方餘悠：“You are right, you were too young, you wouldn't know how to handle it, that was not your fault-（沒錯，你太小了，你不知道怎麼去應對，那不是你的錯-）”
Jayden卻停止了抽泣，臉上突然消失了一切情緒，以一種異常平靜的聲音打斷了她：“But maybe all this is just a lie. Maybe I could do something but I just chose not to, maybe even my company could be helpful. You know, this idea has always been lingering at the back of my head, and I think I know there's some truth to it, but I just didn't want to see it. This is the first time I ever admit it to myself that maybe I chose tennis over her. I was at the top of my game, I was hailed as the most promising next-gen player, my parents were just swamped by my business, and she was just left all alone...she was... she was abandoned, by me, by all of us...（但也許所有這一切都是謊言。也許我能夠做一些事，我隻是選擇了不去做，也許隻是簡單的陪伴也會有所幫助。你知道嗎，這個想法一直在我的腦海深處徘徊，我覺得我知道這在一定程度上是事實，我隻是不想去看到它。這是我第一次向自己承認我在那時選擇了網球而不是她。我當時打得火熱，我被譽為最有潛力的新生代球員，我的父母都圍着我的事宜團團轉，她就這樣一個人被丢下了... 她... 被抛棄了，被我，被我們所有人...）”
東方餘悠沒有料到怎麼他話鋒一轉就到了這個結論，吃驚地看着他。
Jayden：“There it is, I said it, I killed her.（就是這樣，我說出來了，我殺了她。）”
東方餘悠：“No, don't say that, you didn't kill anybody. （沒有，别這麼說，你沒有殺任何人。）”
Jayden：“I did, and it feels good to say it. I killed her. I think I always felt that way, I just couldn't bring myself to acknowledge it.（我殺了，這樣說起來竟然讓我感覺很輕松。我殺了她。我覺得我一直都有這樣的感覺，我隻是一直沒有辦法承認而已。）”
東方餘悠：“No, you didn't kill her. I know you have your regrets, and you think you could've done more, but you didn't kill her, that's different.（不，你沒有殺她。我知道你有悔恨，你覺得你可以做更多，。但是你沒有殺她，這是不一樣的。）”